Just another musing on this journey called life...my younger cousin is getting married this December and I'm very happy for her...I just can't say the same way if she remains happy ever after...I just hope she does...:P Which reminds me that I'm getting too old already. But what the heck...probably I'm still not yet ready for married life and all. All in good time as they say...but sometimes I wonder if I have already waited long enough that I have become completely resigned to my fate as a spinster in training. I want to be with someone, yet he clearly doesn't want to be with me LOL. And I guess I have to wait until I get tired of waiting and probably pass from this life a blessedly single soul.

Sometimes I say to myself...did I wish hard enough? If the premise of the book "The Secret" is to be believed, then I have been wishing ever since that day when I had my first crush in kindergarten. Wishing and believing and hoping and...God knows what else. Maybe I wasn't wishing hard enough...or still, I am hesitant about something...like something's holding me back. For now, I can't still understand at the moment. Do I need to wish harder? Do I need to hope more? Do I need to believe more than what I currently believe at the moment? Etc. etc.

I read something from a mail my aunt sent me from the US..."don't count years, count heartbeats." Well, it's what the sticker said on the envelope. I think I should learn to count the heartbeats that I have and let the years pass and let me fade away peacefully, loved, and blessed.

Shouldn't we all?

Labels: life muse, LOL, single blessedness

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